There is so much going through my mind I'm hardly sleeping, but it's not all bad - it's good to have ideas flowing and knowing they have a purpose.
I'll wake up one day and think I should try to get another job in the company I work for. Then the next I wake up and think I should start my own company. The next day I'll wake up with an urge to start job hunting. Then the next............
So new jobs in my current company are being mailed for me - and I've started my own company. I can't start job hunting yet as I'm not sure it's what I want to do and I don't want to mess people about. Plus of course the whole world is job hunting right now.
I'm an army kid - I spent much of my childhood arriving somewhere, making friends quickly - then saying goodbye to them. Then arriving somewhere..... As we are built from our prior experience this means I am three things - very resilient - great at dealing with change - very very quick at putting what was my reality behind me and moving on.
This creates a bit of an issue with taking a job in the company I already work for. Firstly it's unlikely to be doing the thing that I love and gives me the desire to get up the morning (that job's gone) and secondly, they basically moved me on. So mentally I have already moved on and that company is now a part of my past life story. I suspect I could bounce back and get over that equally quickly - time will/would tell.
When I heard I was to be made redundant I was finishing off a qualification. So for two days afterwards completing that and getting my certification was my primary focus. Once I'd achieved that I started working on my company. The first thing I did was register it with HMRC - before the name got pinched (like that would happen!!!! but I was genuinely nervous), then whilst I let my subconscious work on what that company would offer I pushed forward.
I've now got an accountant. She seems great and has already given some great advice. I also started on a website, but soon realised I couldn't build a website without the words. So over the last few days I've been on some brainless walks - just letting my mind wander. About 10.00pm last night it all fell into place.
So I'm going to script the website and get that built, then I'm going to focus for a couple of weeks on the boring documentation and looking into things like insurance and pension etc. Make sure it's all costed up and I'm good to go if that's my final decision.
Technology is going to be my biggest cost. Laptop and licences - I also need a new phone as mine rarely behaves itself - and I think if I do have my own business I should perhaps not have it on pay as you go! Given that I've been pay as you go for a very, very long time this is quite a leap for me. My very first mobile was on a contract - the phone was a disaster - memory was around 3 minutes - so you couldn't even make a telephone call. I was then trapped into this for a year. Once bitten and all that. Although this was a million years ago and hopefully things are better now.
It's great to be able to blog about some 'real' stuff - even if it is still a bit fluffy and uncertain. Even I was finding stories about washing and bread flour boring after all this time. I'm glad I did so many qualifications and training whilst I was on furlough - not only does it mean I have some great new or improved skills to move forward with - it also means I've kept my brain sharp.
That said, I remember when I took MAT leave after my son was born. When you're not doing the things you're great at it's easy to start to lose your confidence. I feel a bit the same at the moment, it's going to be quite a leap going back into something full force - particularly if it's working for a different company or running my own company. Strange times.
Chin up, chest out, head up - go gettem!
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