I'm feeling a little washed out at the moment. Normally I get to about February and my skin takes on a sallow look, it likes to tell the world it's been through winter and hasn't seen significant sun.
Once it gets to that point it highlights every broken vein, the dark circles under my eyes and often in photographs I look surprisingly (and very depressingly) like Fester Adams!
Looking in the mirror as I brushed my teeth this morning I was horrified to see that I've managed to achieve my February sallowness by November. I hate to think what I'll look like by February. I'm thinking a bit like Darth Vader - you know that moment when he takes his mask off and you're wishing that he hadn't gone to the effort.
Needless to say I've plastered on about 4 layers of fake tan - so hopefully by lunchtime I'll be at least back to Casper the Ghost levels of whiteness. Tomorrow I'll shove another 4 layers on and go for the David Dickinson tan level. Frankly anything is better than the current look.
Nasty thing happened yesterday that totally freaked me out. I suddenly had this jagged white thing appear in my vision. Really bright. It impaired my vision and when I shut my eyes it was there as bright as the sun.
I'm not one to Google ailments - I believe they call it cybercondria - because normally you look something up and it says something like 'oh yes, this happened to Mr Blogs and 2 days later his fingernails and eyes fell out'. But I was frankly concerned so I bit the bullet and I did the Google.
Turns out it's not something too freaky it's called an Ocular Migraine - basically your eye having a bad headache. Most likely because I'm doing lots of close up screen work right now and am not getting out of the house as much. Certainly the first thing I did was go out for a walk so that the muscles in my eyes were looking at things at long distance and within half an hour it went.
Husband says he gets them on occasion too and that's why we've now got these new 'daylight' light-bulbs in our respective studies. I've got to be honest I don't put the light on in my study until it gets dark outside, save the planet and all that, but as it seems to be impacting my eyes I'm going to have to keep the light on - at least until we can get out and about a bit more.
Didn't pick up too much last night about what Boris said would happen after this current lockdown. I understand different areas will know what it means to them when their 'level' is revealed on Thursday. Having had very low levels throughout my area suddenly had a sharp increase just before lockdown, though it centered on student areas.
That said, I don't live far from the Universities at all, just a couple of miles - it's just that the area I live in is likely to be the last place a student would want to 'hang out' - it's very much where you live if you walk with a stick or have a young child. I believe the pubs rock at night, but to be honest since we've lived here we've not gone out much because we've been raising son.
We've got no family living close and friends don't live in this area. Babysitters come in at about £15-£20 an hour!!! As a result we've always had the choice of either having a Babysitter OR going out, but the two things would not be conceivable at the same time.
It's been ok to be honest, we go over to friends with son - they're quite tolerant about that - if we go out we just do it at lunchtime and take son with us. Now we've done this for 12 years it feels completely normal - as a result it would be very strange to do something without son. It also means that he has had a load of experiences that a kid wouldn't normally get. I think he just sees it as normal. Life will probably be a bit of a shock when he leaves home and discovers what normal life for a kid is really like.
On the subject of leaving home, it's all he talks about these days. It breaks my heart. It's funny but when your kid is 5 it feels like every day is a century because there is always so much to do. Then people say 'ahh it goes so quickly'. I always thought they were bonkers saying that as it simply wasn't true. Then suddenly your kid is growing up and your 'baby' has gone - and you suddenly think 'oh, that was really quick'.
Loiks, that was a massive divergence from the topic - just a reminder I was saying that I didn't pick up much of what Boris said and we'd know our local level/tier on Thursday. Basically I'll worry about the rules when I know what tier we are (see, it wasn't even an interesting story to start with!).
Anyway, got lots to do today - having to turn my brain on big time at the moment. Can't believe how quickly the days are going ready for launch of new business. Literally romping towards me, so much to do...
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