It's feeling lovely out there are the moment. The sun has been shining for about a week. Not exactly bright blue skies, but after a winter of rain it feels blissful. Also as we live by the sea one of the things you often get are the most stunning sunsets. The one in the picture is from a couple of evenings ago. Yes I know it's not up there with those pictures you see from tropical beaches. But right now I'll take what I get and I think it's lovely.
So I had my weekly consitutional on Saturday to walk to village to go to butchers. It was so nice husband also came too. After we'd picked up our weekly provisions we wandered down to the beach. It was really busy. Everybody was socially distancing though.
One of the things that was particularly nice was there were quite a lot of elderly couples out and about. I haven't seen that for months and given that the area we live in is predominently oldies it's nice to know that they're brave enough to leave the house at long last.
Yesterday was a quiet one as I celebrated the nice weather too hard on Saturday and woke up with Wine Flu - quite a bad case of it actually. In the afternoon I realised that son had been stuck in front of computer for hours and said 'Would you like to do some crafting'. I'll be honest I expected him to say no - at which point I could settle back knowing I'd done my good mum bit.
To my horror he said - 'oh yes please'. So off I got to go and get card and scissors etc. etc. Actually it was very nice working with him on our project. Just him and me. Husband went out yesterday and did a 4 hour walk in the sunshine. I think it was just good for him to get away from son and I - afterall we've lived in each others pockets for ages.
As soon as the route out of lockdown was announced last week I booked a load of tables at restaurants. So just hold on there and who knows in a few weeks I may actually have something to talk about. Watch this space. Son has decided he wants to go to Victory in Portsmouth and husband is all up for a long weekend in Bristol. Personally I'm holding out for a visit to London - but I think it will be a while before I'm comfortable doing that.
I am beyond sick of lockdown now - it's been going on far too long - literally had enough and am beginning to get quite militant. Government are driving me mad - as soon as they mention things getting better they then worry people are getting too relaxed. At this point they then start to threaten even tougher lockdowns. I think that there will be a massive rebellion at some point. We've already seen riots across the rest of Europe. It will not be too long before things happen here as well.
Work was interesting on Friday - when it turned out that my new boss didn't really understand what I do. I pointed out that he'd employed somebody that matched the job spec 100%. He admited he didn't really understand the job spec, and just assumed it covered the things he thought it did. I really think I can make a positive difference and so am very much hoping this works itself out. It's also somewhere I really want to make that difference, which is important.
If it all goes pear shaped it's not the end of the world as I can restart my business at any point. And without job hunting I was offered quite a few jobs, the job I took was the one that meant something to me. But having soul searced over the weekend I'm now very confident that I really hope it works out. It's just a very strange position to be in. Very strange.
In fact one of my ideas to make extra cash when I started my new business was to become a film extra. I don't regret putting my company on hold - or turning down any of the other jobs and I definitely don't regret not being at my old job. But I do regret not being able to see if the film extra thing could have worked out - interesting.......... I have no desire to be the star in a film - I did when I was in my teens - did loads of acting then - but as soon as I hit 18 I lost total interest in acting. But being a film extra actually sounds quite a bit of fun.
Anyway, one thing the last year has shown us is 'what will be, will be' (bursts into song), I'm very calm about all of this. But it feels great knowing that right now I'm in the right place (even if my boss is unsure), doing something where I feel I can make a positive difference to the world (think boss does agree on that). So I shall just continue as I do and all will be revealed when the time is right.
Oh and my winter lights are down - took them down on Saturday. All looks very dull outside now, but given the suns out it doesn't feel like a long damp winter is stretching ahead any more. Our garden looks most grown up.
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